I stayed in on Flag Day and watched Mad Men even though I would have liked to see the Nutmeggers do bluegrass versions of rap songs. 

Right now I'm hearing Song of the Soul, one of my all time favorites.

B day

There is an internet meme that has one look up the number one pop song the week you were born and then post it.  I've been kind of embarrassed that mine is "It's My Party and I'll Cry if I Want To."  It is not uncommon for me to cry on by birthday though.  There is something about the celebrations that makes me sad.



I have plenty to be grateful for of course.  My kids keep veering back and forth between disaster and awesomeness--either way they are both pretty grown up and responsible for their own success or failure.  My parents are old now but managing fine.  Being someone's mother, wife, or daughter isn't really enough anymore.  I have to be my own someone.  I'm giving myself one more trip around the sun before I evaluate.  I don't have a strategic plan for how to use the next 12 months.  Maybe I'll do a tarot card for each.  Today was  Four of Stones   My interpretation book talks about thunder, about knowing and conquering fear and finding my source of strength.

Memories of the casualties of war

I think I've missed some minor holidays and celestial events.  But I did manage to eat a dairy dinner (Trader Joe's shells and brie and asparagus) for Shavout.

Today is Memorial Day.  The long weekend rest is really needed after one of the most stressful 2 week periods in my life. I've been prone since H. left for his dad's yesterday at 6 even though there is toxic waste waiting to be cleaned up in the basement.

The general atmosphere of mourning seems different this year from some which are all about beer and BBQ.

I would love it if people could exercise love not fear, Donnie Darko be damned.

Poor Unfortunate Victims

I spent a sunny Mother's Day with two different local families after treating myself to a soak and sauna at Common Ground.  Nice to observe awkward family drama that I'm not really a part of.  I see the value in just getting along and having a good time, but it can be so difficult to do while remaining conscious.  Got a new/old pillow at a resale shop.  My other son sent me roses and I got a bouquet with lilacs and talked to my mother on Saturday.

Later I made dinner for my son and watched a little tv with him then went to the pub. I was sober enough to notice people drunker than me.  Dan played Zappa in a more than usual rock-type show.

Sunny and moony Cinco de Mayo. The weekend went by too quickly. A doctor worked to save my orchid. I had my first kumquats. People have been making comments about my hair. I probably look like a freak.

I had a vacation from work to go to Cleveland. Then at the end of last month it was Arbor Day, yay trees! Then May Day! It was great to be with the ILWU Local 8 celebrating International Workers Day. What is Beltane? I think I'm celebrating that too. It's Golden Week in Japan combining 9 holidays. I finished a couple of books I'd been reading for a while. Maybe I have turned a page.

Kboo has been great for me today. Democracy Now!, Positively Revolting, my favorite women singers. Harbingers of the Great Turning.