Have to look it up. 3/30/19 4 something in the new calendar. I just realized it will never be 4/20

Oh no what day is it? 4 months in and I've lost count? The one thing I remember is that every double day 1/1, 2/2, 3/3 and so on until 19/19 is a holiday.

3/18

March flew by this year. 4/1 April fools is Monday.

Watching a show on TV Shrill that is a mirror my own life. Portlandia as That Girl, MTM, The New Girl. I think Fran should get an African American friend who grew up in Portland.

I'm going to try to install my bidet now.

3/14

I should eat some pie. The dream about goblet stems breaking was the same as the two daughters dream.

The Hungry Root Ginger Tahini Yuba Noodles are delicious even after all this time. I guess I'll be breaking my no meat resolution Friday. But it can just be a cheat day rather than an abandonment of the goal.

Something sounds like crickets.

3/11

Maybe the reason I like fashion is that picking out an outfit is a fun thing to do to start the day. Although I did look up to the professor in law school who wore a white shirt and black shirt every day because it demonstrated seriousness. I don't wear make-up often or do my hair, but looking at the mountain of clothes I've accumulated I see my focus could have been directed in a more productive direction.

Yesterday might have been the last freeze of the year in Portland. I feel guilty that I compared the problem of homeless campers to unwanted animal pests. I think it is easier to think about humane options for feral cats and abandoned dogs than for people with nowhere to go.

I've been looking more into my astro chart. My Libra ascendant Venus in the 8th house explains my lifelong desire to have everyone I know on the same team and to make matches of all single people I know. I wonder if there is an astrology book that tells you how to counterbalance your tendencies?

3/9

I had a fun Mardi Gras 3/7. Saw Jackstraw, Reggie, and Larry Yes. I guess Julia and I try to make up for the lack of women musicians by being on the dance floor. I missed Taeko Yokohama.

Mercury Retrograde has been apparent. I had lunch with my ex-husband from 10+ years ago. I hadn't seen him in about a year maybe. He looks like Bernie Sanders. Now, I'm a bit concerned about my Bernie-mania. Also I heard from someone I thought was ghosting me.

I'm feeling angry despair about the single-minded anti-abortion, anti-choice mentality of Republicans. They don't seem to get that no one wants to kill a baby--well actually people who oppose environmental regulations, gun control, medicare for all, and anti-war peace movements do want to kill babies--but most women who choose abortion over carrying a fetus to term do not want to kill a baby. Many are mothers before or after abortions. We care for the life and then choose to end it before there is conscious suffering. We care for ourselves more than the shame, fear and guilty that the patriarchy has imposed on women and our sexuality so that they can control it. If we sin, it's between us and our God or Goddesses and not the business of the government. It's so incredibly manipulative and stupid. People who are agnostic or libertarian about every greedy gross thing Trump and the steaming pile of Conservatives/Republicans can think of are slaves to the idea that they need to force women into having babies they don't want.

I wonder about China's forced abortion program. That seems wrong too, especially the preference for males that ended up unbalancing the genders so that now women are more valued and the men are all frustrated violent incels. But was it the right thing population/ecology wise?

Here's a video of Reggie