Paul Simon John Lennon

A leader of a seminal rock band died this morning

Lou Reed.  I had a t-shirt with the Warhol banana on it, sleeves cut off of course, that I'd wear without a bra.  I had a show on KRRC at breakfast time Sunday mornings that I would start with this song each time I made it.  Sometimes I would be there late Saturday night and decide to go to bed, leaving my time slot to be filled by whoever was dj'ing overnight.

When I saw Lou play recently I was disappointed that he used a teleprompter.  But that was before I started paying attention to musicians and realized how hard it is to memorize lyrics.

I didn't have much of a feeling besides annoyance at other people's attention being drawn toward something I didn't care about when John Lennon died.  I hope I've become less solipsistic in the years since that day. I know I appreciate John and the Beatles more now.

Lou Reed and the Velvets were it for me, coolness incarnate.  Sad for his widow Laurie Anderson.  I don't know where I was when I heard about John Lennon's death.  Today I was watching "As Good As It Gets" and looking at facebook.

My ex-husband is at his girlfriend's mother's funeral.

Sometimes I am amazed when I think about all of the lives of all of the people I don't know.  The more I  find out, the more I realize that truth is stranger than fiction.

I was feeling guilty today for hurting people I have loved.  Sorry people I have loved.

I hope I can learn to laugh at the perversity of human nature--that we have a sense of right and wrong, good and evil, and yet we fuck up constantly--rather than cry to turn away from the truth.

Like Antonin Scalia.  He thinks he is a good person.  He believes in the Devil and the Catholic Church.  He thinks is was brave not to recuse himself from Dick Cheney's case.  He has reached the pinnacle of the legal profession in our country.

I've considered taking up stand-up as a hobby.  It might be easier than learning a craft or how to play an instrument.  But for the next two years I've committed to studying Hebrew.

Got confused and posted to LiveJournal not here.

Extended Family

October 07, 2013, 16:11

The ex-wife of one of my cousins on my mother's side has chatted me up occasionally on facebook. I don't IM much in any format, but I tried to respond to her friendly questions and discussions about her life. At the end of the summer, her mother got ill, had surgery and was not recovering very well. My cousin wrote a facebook message about how disappointed she was that she didn't have much support from friends during the difficult time. I felt guilty and wrote her a message which she acknowledged gratefully. Despite the facebook prayers, her mother died. It kind of seemed like a good thing given the challenges my cousin described.

Then, while I was on vacation, I got news that Lenin Lee, a cousin on my father's side, was killed in a car crash in California. This was just after I connected with two of my other Chinese cousins on my trip. I used up all of my vacation time so I couldn't go to the funeral. My cousin's wife is named Becky too. I feel sorry for her. My dad is also sad because he was a surrogate father to Lenin whose father died a long time ago.

I'm feeling old and guess that I'll have more and more experience with death. Also on the trip, I heard an excellent ghost story. I sent flowers to my cousin's gravesite to make him feel better about leaving earth.

Also, I forgot to mention Afifa here.